So hi! And a request for Supernatural readers.....

[tabaqui]

Another update, wow!
:) So, sweptawaybayou and I were talking about writing, and about how both of us are kind of struggling with that right now. Having stress, having poor motivation, having blocks. She was telling me that her reading fluffy and fun Steve/Bucky fic was motivating her to write (yay! Snow-fic!), and I was telling her that re-watching (and reading) The Expanse was motivating me to write finish the J2 Space AU.

And I just rewatched episode 7 of season 2, and

And the moment when Miller finds Julie, and she's so scared, and so lost - she doesn't know where she is, she was abandoned, she *died*, in a way, she just wants to go home.... And he's talking her down, and reassuring her, and he takes off his vac-suit and he holds her hand, and kisses it, and.....

Fuck, it's so fucking gorgeous, and it hurts my heart like nothing else. Makes me cry, and sitting here writing about it, I'm crying again. Fucking Miller, gods, I love him, and Julie, Julie, you tried so hard, you were so fucking brave.....

I want to be able to put that into my writing, that absolute *hammerblow* of emotion, of pathos, of love and courage and empathy....
*sniffles*

Anyway - yeah. So that makes me get back to serious Space AU work.


My request! I wrote two fic, waaaaaaaaaay back in the day.
Day in the Life. Pre-series, gen, PG. The boys being brothers, John being a father, and the origin of Rumsfeld the dog.

Brightness Falls From the Air. Gen, PG-13, immediate post-season-1 ficlet. At the moment of impact, just one moment from their past is bright and clear....

Apparently, I posted them *only* to Supernaturalfic, the community, over on LJ. It has since moved (Supernaturalfic at Dreamwidth), and the comm at LJ was purged.

I do not have a *single copy* of these fics on my HD, on any g.doc, on anything, anywhere.
And they did *not* survive the move, I do not know why. Waybackmachine is also a bust.

Anybody have copies of these two fic? Or know where they might have been archived besides the comm? I would give about anything for copies.

THANK YOU! :D

ETA: HOMG you guys. yourlibrarian found both fic in like - ten seconds. HOLY CRAP. The reason I (think) i couldn't find them is in comments. DAMN. *twirls* I am so happy! Wheee!!

Brightness Falls From the Air.
Day In the Life.

Comments

[yourlibrarian]

Yay!

I figured it was some kind of tagging failure or you would have come across them. I looked for your author tag too but I couldn't seem to make it come up. I'm not sure why because it seems that both posts are tagged that way, but I kept jumping back in what I assumed was alphabetical order but didn't find any of your entries.

And yeah, without being sure when the posts were made that would have made for a lot of scrolling in the archive. You can see all post titles by month (but this community's been open a long time, wow, impressive). Though if you were sure it was in the first few years of the show that would have gone a lot quicker. I wasn't clear if that's what you meant about the fics though since a S1 fic could well have been written 10 years later!

One of the pluses on DW though is that we actually have a site-centered search function and there was one enabled at the community here which made things way easier. I've relied on it a lot over the years.

And yay for Expanse love! I've been enjoying each season of it more.

[tabaqui]

I just now went and added my author tag to them (and saw the number jump from 51 to 53), and am now posting both fic on my LJ/DW in backdated posts.

I didn't even *mention* them in my journal, at all, and when i looked at the fic i posted around the same time, and looked at the DW comm entries then, i still didn't see them.

They were the very first things I posted at the comm, and i think maybe the tag system wasn't in place yet? I dunno. Tags is so easy and handy, but back then it was all memories, memories, memories (and when i think now of how awkward and infuriating memories was to use...oy vey).

I spent about a week trying to find those fic, and even contacted moderators-who-don't-moderate anymore, and basically made myself crazy.

And yeah - that comm's been around since season one, which is awesome, and i'm so glad they moved it over to DW and did *not* just purge it and trash all the fic there.

Thanks again - you are so awesome. I was getting so frustrated! And to not have copies of them anywhere - wth was i thinking?