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Wednesday, March 1st, 2006 05:31 pm
As you may or may not know...or care...i joined [livejournal.com profile] darkhavens challenge comm, [livejournal.com profile] kaz2y5. The challenge this week was 'bonds', and for some reason i *struggled*. Maybe 'cause i decided to go with Sam's POV, i dunno...

Anyway, here's the fic, too late to go in the comm, but i thought i'd post it anyway. My other Supernatural ficlets are here.

If you like the fandom, join the comm! Watchers and writers both are good! *ahem*
And i got nothin' for title. Sheesh. My brain still hasn't turned back on.
ETA: Spoilers for the ep 'The Benders' - sorry!





Dean was the one who'd gotten burned, stabbed and beat on but it was Sam who got sick, walking seventeen miles in the cold mist. And sitting on damp straw and iron for nearly 24 hours in his shirt-sleeves. For some reason, this annoyed Sam.

By the time they got back to the car and found a motel - and Sam had to get the room with yet another scammed credit-card, which just pissed him off - he could tell he was running a temperature. And that pissed him off more. But the first aid kit didn't have anything for burns - they'd used it all up three months back - so Sam parked Dean in the bathroom with instructions to get the dreck off, grabbed another Visa and headed for the twenty-four-hour gas station hoping like hell he'd find the stuff he needed.

Sam was supposed to have gotten the first aid kit refilled after last time and he'd forgotten but - and he told Dean this as Dean gingerly pried his soaked, muddy boots off - Dean should have reminded him. Dean just grinned - kept grinning at him while Sam shivered and blew his nose and sniffled all the way out the door. Sam's irritation over the cold and the cards and the fucking long walk all transferred straight to Dean and his irritating, annoying self. Annoying about so much, and sometimes Sam wondered why the hell he put up with it.

For instance, the 'wouldn't you look pretty sitting on my cock' once-over and leer he gave almost any girl who crossed his path. And the way half of them leered back, like being someone's private porno was no big deal. Or the insufferably cocky way he'd start off a story or make a point by saying 'When I was hunting on my own, these past couple years...' Like that gave him a right to call Sam 'Sammy' and 'junior' and 'noob'.

And could their job get any harder than when Dean decided that the local sheriff or police or, hell, park rangers were too pathetic for words and started making little, digging comments about how they handled 'the job'? Sometimes, Sam just wanted to smack Dean right in front of God, the cops, and everybody.


*Not really mad at you, Dean. Just scared out of my fucking mind. I didn't pay attention and I almost got you killed by some fucked up group of inbred low-lifes. I did that and I'm not mad at you, my fucking fault you'll have a scar here, damnit, God damnit...* Sam wiped his nose with the back of his wrist and put down the last bit of tape on the bandage on Dean's burnt shoulder - packed up the kit and then shed his own damp, dirty clothes and went to stand under a spray of hot water for about twenty minutes. It helped, but not a lot.

By the time he got out he was shivering again and he dug back into the kit for aspirin - bundled up in a t-shirt, flannel, hoodie, sweats and socks and crawled miserably into bed. He lay there, body locked into spasmodic shudders, gritting his teeth every time Dean flipped past the Cartoon Network.

Eventually, he dozed off.

When he woke up, Dean was just slipping in, looking a bit grey and rumpled around the edges and Sam frowned and sat up and groaned. His head thumped along with his heart and he felt like he was freezing to death. Red-orange dawn-light coming in past the curtains, little ray that lanced straight across the room.

And Dean was humming something - some stupid head-banger tune while he poked around in rustley, crinkly bags.

"You should be in bed," Sam muttered - his throat felt like he'd swallowed salt and nails. He watched Dean limp and wince and make small hissing sounds when he moved his arm - pivoted on the leg that had gotten stabbed. His eyes were a little bloodshot.

"I mostly was," Dean muttered back, and Sam noticed how twisted the covers were. He straightened them with shaking hands, pushing a pillow behind his back and then Dean was sitting down on the edge of the mattress, handing Sam two bright-blue capsules and two aspirin and a ginger ale. Sam took them - swallowed the pills - sipped the ginger ale, which soothed his throat.

Then Dean handed him a little cup of sweet-and-sour soup and a little cup of orange Jell-O and Sam was starting to smile, now. Then Dean laid a fan of Jumbo Crossword Puzzles! and Jumbo Hidden Pictures! and Jumbo Designs for Coloring! on Sam's thighs - put a packet of pre-sharpened colored pencils on top of that and a packet of black-ink Bic pens. Hard-core flashback to fifth grade strep throat and the only time Sam'd ever been sick enough to go to the ER.

"Sorry you're sick, Sammy," Dean said, and Sam blinked down at the books and the soup and the Jell-O - at the pills and ginger ale on the nightstand and then up into Dean's tired, smiling gaze.

"I'm okay. This is - great." *Sorry, Dean, sorry...* "You wanna watch Oprah?"

"Joan Rivers is on," Dean said, heeling off his boots and settling down, right under the covers and knee to thigh to shoulder, warm and solid.

"Thanks," Sam whispered and Dean just leaned into him a little more and sighed, pillow bunched under his neck. In five minutes he was asleep and Sam very carefully did nothing at all until he woke up again.
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Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 12:05 am (UTC)
You've really captured the resentment and need and conflict Sam feels. Loved it.

And this line

his throat felt like he'd swallowed salt and nails.

was just perfect.
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 12:29 am (UTC)
omg!

*resists omfg resists*

This is fantastic, darlin! Perfect characterization, dead on.

*coughs*

Can say that now that someone seems to have somehow gotten me to start watching now and again.

*loves*
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 12:38 am (UTC)
Dude I have total sympathy for Sam, I'm just barely getting over my own rotten cold. *pets both the hurting boys*

It's official, there's no turnin' back from these two. *shakes head in mock resignation* ;D *still needs to upload SN icons*
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 05:00 am (UTC)
Ooh, I definitely approve of the bits you added, especially Sam's hardcore flashback. So sweet! *g*

Love it! It's linked in the new challenge post and will go into memories with the other responses.

And go you with the pimpin'! :D
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 05:11 am (UTC)
Oh! I love Dean!
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 06:06 am (UTC)
Damn!!! This was sooooo them!!! Sam's resentment is gonna get them both into trouble soon enough, tho... He is so conflicted!! *Sigh...* This was a wonderful piece of realistic, angsty goodness!!

*Loves...*
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 08:17 am (UTC)
Boy I love this show-funny-Dean irritates me as much as he does Sam LOL- I get Sam's resentment-Dean is a Dad's boy -looks like him has an unspoken understanding with him he sees the stuff they see from the outside- Sam was Mom's boy- she's gone-he's got the stuff in his head and he never wanted it it at all and for all they're brother's he's all alone with the terrifying gift.

I'm well and truly hooked and last weeks episode just blew me away. So I'm right there with you.
Sib relationships are never easy- but they're the ones who are in it with you for life if you let them be, you captured a slice of that in this fic- thanks.

The salt and nails bit-long time since I had a sore throat but it brought it all back:>)

Sami
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 09:25 pm (UTC)
Oh, the hurt! And the comfort! And just spot-on characterization, with that lovely not!snuggle at the end (those always seem to wind up on the cutting room floor somehow... :(
Saturday, March 18th, 2006 11:35 pm (UTC)
Oooh! How much do I love that you write SPN fic. This is so awesome and I just love it!

The cute coloring books and colored pencils and oh, it's just so cute. Awesome job! :)
Wednesday, April 5th, 2006 11:24 pm (UTC)
For instance, the 'wouldn't you look pretty sitting on my cock' once-over and leer he gave almost any girl who crossed his path. And the way half of them leered back, like being someone's private porno was no big deal. Or the insufferably cocky way he'd start off a story or make a point by saying 'When I was hunting on my own, these past couple years...' Like that gave him a right to call Sam 'Sammy' and 'junior' and 'noob'.

That's Dean, to the life, and exactly how Sam would think of him--

And could their job get any harder than when Dean decided that the local sheriff or police or, hell, park rangers were too pathetic for words and started making little, digging comments about how they handled 'the job'? Sometimes, Sam just wanted to smack Dean right in front of God, the cops, and everybody.

You saw that episode, too?
*snorfles*

The characterization is spot-on and your prose glows, as always. You've nailed both Sam and Dean perfectly.

*Not really mad at you, Dean. Just scared out of my fucking mind. I didn't pay attention and I almost got you killed by some fucked up group of inbred low-lifes. I did that and I'm not mad at you, my fucking fault you'll have a scar here, damnit, God damnit...*

Again, with the perfection. You are a direct rival. I must kill you now.

Then Dean handed him a little cup of sweet-and-sour soup and a little cup of orange Jell-O and Sam was starting to smile, now. Then Dean laid a fan of Jumbo Crossword Puzzles! and Jumbo Hidden Pictures! and Jumbo Designs for Coloring! on Sam's thighs - put a packet of pre-sharpened colored pencils on top of that and a packet of black-ink Bic pens. Hard-core flashback to fifth grade strep throat and the only time Sam'd ever been sick enough to go to the ER.

"Sorry you're sick, Sammy,"--


He's not minding the "Sammy" so much anymore, is he?

--Dean said, and Sam blinked down at the books and the soup and the Jell-O - at the pills and ginger ale on the nightstand and then up into Dean's tired, smiling gaze.

"I'm okay. This is - great." *Sorry, Dean, sorry...* "You wanna watch Oprah?"

"Joan Rivers is on," Dean said, heeling off his boots and settling down, right under the covers and knee to thigh to shoulder, warm and solid.

"Thanks," Sam whispered and Dean just leaned into him a little more and sighed, pillow bunched under his neck. In five minutes he was asleep and Sam very carefully did nothing at all until he woke up again.


That gave me the warm-fuzzies. You're making me like the warm-fuzzies. Does your wickedness know no bounds?!

Oh, but this was good. Just--I don't normally read a lot of gen, but I should've know that if you were writing it, it'd be kickass.

More SN gen, pwease? I'll give you a shiny nickel!
Saturday, April 8th, 2006 05:49 pm (UTC)
But it's the not-explicitness that kinda makes it--I dunno. Better, more prettyhurtybeautiful. There's so much hidden behind the words, things they can't or won't say. . . .
Saturday, May 20th, 2006 02:12 am (UTC)
So perfect, even though Dean is hurt he still gets up to get stuff for Sammy's cold... awwwww...

I adored it... tabaqui strikes again...

I don't think you have to worry about your Sam!voice... it's perfect... i really thought the whole fic was great
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006 01:10 am (UTC)
Winchesters taking care of each other is the quickest, easiest way to my heart nowadays, and you did this excellently. Irritable Sam was hilarious, bitching to himself about trudging outdoors with a cold, but Dean sneaking off in the middle of the night to get him medicine and crossword puzzles was a thing of beauty. Great job!
Thursday, January 11th, 2007 09:27 am (UTC)
Awww... sooo cute! I rreally liked The Benders... even if it was creepy as hell. [livejournal.com profile] maygra wrote a fic called Family Ways about the Benders and it was so awesome... creepy and real and... gah. You should read it.

YAY!
Friday, March 9th, 2007 09:58 pm (UTC)
Awww -- great story!
Saturday, March 10th, 2007 09:52 am (UTC)
The fact Sam likes to color is completely unsurprising and pretty much the best thing ever.
Saturday, March 10th, 2007 05:10 pm (UTC)
Oh Sam! oh .. Dean! hach I love them so much. I really liked this and I generally read only porn! *g*

For instance, the 'wouldn't you look pretty sitting on my cock' once-over and leer he gave almost any girl who crossed his path. And the way half of them leered back, like being someone's private porno was no big deal.

Hee! ♥
Saturday, March 10th, 2007 05:58 pm (UTC)
*lol* I think it has to do with [livejournal.com profile] spn_appreciate *g* I found my way through the [livejournal.com profile] spnnewsletter :D
Monday, August 27th, 2007 05:59 am (UTC)
Awww! Sick!Sammy is awesome :) And so is Awesome!Dean.

yays! Thank you for sharing ;)
Thursday, April 17th, 2008 03:51 am (UTC)
this is just so....so sweet and lovely and adorable I want to wrap it in fluffy blankets and feed it chicken soup.... :D
Sunday, May 11th, 2008 08:58 pm (UTC)
Love the transference, and I adore how Sam is concentrating on his guilt for putting Dean in danger from the Benders. Nowhere in there is he thinking of himself and the danger he was in before Dean came to find him – this is just so typical of the way the brother’s always think of each other first.

Them both in pain, Dean looking after Sam, and bringing him drugs, and ginger ale, soup, jelly and colouring books and pens. Aw, Dean.

Neither of them can say it, but they show it in every way. Great story!

Monday, May 12th, 2008 05:51 am (UTC)
Winchesters don't always have to be consistent, they are John's boys after all. And some situations throw you. Love it.