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Saturday, September 30th, 2006 10:24 pm
My my, what a day! Crazy goings-on with livejournal and all this nonsense about 'sponsored communities'...gah!

I swear, LJ is just becoming so damn annoying. Read the post linked in that one to get the full story. Sheesh.

Chilly again, rainy a little, things that make me *happy*! I'm wearing my flannel pj pants! I'm huddling over the space heater in the mornings when the Monstrous Bebe gets ready for school! All, all good.

Speaking of the Monstrous Bebe...clickity to see her school picture. OMG, she's just... Way too pretty and grown-up and...*smart*. Help!! *Yis, i'm bragging. I get to do that, i'm her mum!*

Anyway - more Neverland! Sorry for the delay. Life...happens. :)
Previous chapters here.
Thanks, as always, to [livejournal.com profile] reremouse for her excellent poking and prodding and back-and-forthing. And you guys!! You rock. Feedback on 'Drowning Not Waving' is just...awesome!
*bounce*







Xander was down near the shore – a boat-landing, apparently, the beach scattered with bark canoes and racks of drying nets. Spike followed the solid thwack thwack thwack of wood striking wood more easily than Tink's erratic, hummingbird flight. When Xander came into view, Spike finally saw the reason for all the noise. Xander had a long branch in his hands and was systematically decimating a half-rotten, lightning struck tree. Spike came to a stop in the heavy shadows of the trail, watching.

Xander was breathing hard, his skin oiled with a fine sheen of sweat. His clawed leg was bleeding a little through the bandage. A steady breeze came in off the sea, doing nothing to dispel the low, leaden clouds that bulked to the horizon. Spike lifted his head, taking in a long breath. Xander smelled of iron and salt and something savory-sweet – he smelled alive, and it made Spike's mouth water. He watched the flex and shift of muscles under the scarred skin of Xander's back as he lifted the branch – brought it down and around, again and again. Spike wanted to bite into him – wanted to feel the weight of his fangs sheering through that salty, dusky flesh.

*Don't have time for that... Need to get out of this bloody place.* Spike wasn't sure if getting out – if any of it – really hinged on Xander being himself or not. But one hundred years with Dru had taught him one thing, for sure: you can never know all the rules. *Figured Dru out, most times. I can figure out this little boy…* "Think you've killed it right proper, mate," Spike said, stepping out onto the sloping, pebbled beach and Xander whirled around, branch up and ready. Face flushed – hair in lank strings across his face. And tears. *Christ…*

"Fuck you! Get away from me."

"C'mon now, boy – don't be like that."

"Be like what?" Xander barked, his voice rough – thickened with emotion. He strode straight at Spike, branch raised and Spike hopped back with a curse when the end came whistling through the air, narrowly missing him. "I know how to fucking kill you and I will kill you, bastard!"

"You'll try, I suppose," Spike said and let the demon slip out. Xander's eyes went hot and narrow with rage and then he attacked. Spike grinned, bouncing a little on the balls of his feet – relaxing into the familiar rhythm of a fight. Turn and duck, reach and swing. Pulling the punches or kicks that would have shattered bone – surprised and pleased when Xander got in a few good hits. Made Spike's lip bleed – made his ribs ache. But Xander was already on the fine, fraying edge of himself. Was already skidding down the slope of burn out, his adrenalin flagging and his injured leg giving out under him once and then twice and then Spike kicked it and he was down, on his back – branch skidding away.

Spike went down too – knees on either side of heaving ribs, his hand loosely over Xander's throat. Xander fought on, his broken nails digging into Spike's wrist, his fist flailing blindly at Spike's face. Spike just grabbed and held on – rode out the cursing and the wild-bronco bucking until Xander lay still, panting. Still crying, face wet and eyes wide and blood on his mouth.

*That's right. Get it all out. Settle yourself, now – got things to do.* "You done?" Spike asked, and Xander worked his mouth, like he was going to spit. Spike let his fingers tighten just a little. "I wouldn't, boy."

"Let me up."

"Maybe. If you're nice."

The noise Xander made was choked – a little wheezy, and Spike eased back, fingertips stroking lightly over the skittering pulse, Xander's trapped wrist flexing under his other hand. "I'm not nice. I'm not – not anything, I'm –"

"You're Xander. Xander Harris. You used to live in Sunnydale sodding California and you used to know a Slayer." Spike almost laughed at the look of bewildered surprise that crossed Xander's face. "Annoying blonde twat of a Slayer. And you know what vampires are, and you know me, though I'll be buggered if I can remember you."

"You – you were gonna bite me. At the school. Angel –"

"Angelus?" Spike unconsciously leaned back, his hand slipping away from Xander's throat and Xander twitched like he wanted to get up.

"No, Angel. He was all – souled up and broody and he dragged me into the school and you were there –"

"I'll be damned," Spike said, and Xander actually laughed, shrill and a little shaky. "That was you, then? The little bit of all right all tucked up under the git's arm?"

"Uh. I – guess? Angel was gonna – give me to you or something. For a snack."

"You're really quite a bit more than a snack," Spike murmured, shifting on his knees just a little. Arse to pelvis and this time Xander all but growled, flailing and kicking and panting and Spike just pushed himself to his feet and yanked Xander up by his still-captive wrist. "You'll hurt yourself, mate," Spike said.

"Fuck off." Xander pushed his palms flat to his eyes – ground them around for a moment and then shoved his damp hair back, off his face. "Fuck. I stink. And my leg hurts. I want some god damn soda."

"I want a bottle of Jack and off this poxy island. The red-head said Hook didn't die."

"Huh? Well – Peter says he killed him but in the town, they say he didn't. He's not the same, whatever happened to him." Xander brushed at damp leaves and dirt that were sticking to his belly. "Come on, the Indians have soap."

"I need to meet this Hook. If he knows a way out –"

"He'll kill you," Xander said, and Spike felt for one of his few remaining cigarettes with a sigh.

"I'm bloody hard to kill, boy. Took out two Slayers, I have, and fought yours to a standstill once or twice. Don't think some washed-up pirate can do me in."

"You'd be surprised," Xander muttered. He started limping back up the trail to the village and Spike followed. "Why did…why'd you come after me, anyway?"

Spike took a pull off his smoke and considered what, exactly, to say. He didn't want to admit to being railroaded by a bunch of sodding kids. Or to be scared of never getting out of this madhouse.

He was interrupted by Tink, who'd zoomed away at the start of the fight. The fairy was suddenly back, wallowing through the air like a drunken pigeon and crashing head-long into Xander's chest. Xander's hands came up automatically, cupping the tiny body and Tink hung off his thumb, panting, gossamer wings drooping limply down.

"What in hell –?"

"Tink? What's wrong? You're – not very glowy."

Tink chimed faintly, the glow fading fast. Without it, Tink was palely blue, the color of the sky on a chill winter morning. But the blue was going ashy and as Xander lifted his hands, a thread of scarlet blood spilled over Tink's lips.

"Oh, Jesus! Tink!" Tink's eyes were half-shut, the attenuated body jerking in little spasms. There was a smear of something pink and sticky on his fingers and Spike leaned in and sniffed carefully.

"Smells weird. Smells off. Can they be poisoned?"

Xander looked up at Spike, eyes widening in horror. "Oh, fuck. Yeah, they can. We gotta – gotta go. The Indians –" Xander started running, cupping Tink close to his chest and Spike flicked the cherry off his cigarette and stuffed the unsmoked half into a pocket, loping after Xander.

"What'd he say, before?" Spike asked, and Xander glanced back at him, dodging a low-hanging branch, panting.

"Something about the…pirates…and Tootles and Wendy… I think...they got 'em. I think the pirates got all three."

"Never a dull moment, is there?" Spike grumbled, leaping a clump of brambles. But – captives had to be rescued, didn't they? Looked like he was going to meet Captain Hook sooner than he thought. *And without Pan around, too. Better and better.*
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 03:46 am (UTC)
Flannel pj's????????????? *faints at the thought* God, is it that cold there already?


I really like this 'verse of yours and I know I normally leave better fb but my brain is pfft tonight...

I love it!

*smooches*

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Sunday, October 1st, 2006 03:49 am (UTC)
*And without Pan around, too. Better and better.*
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This is some definition of "better" with which I was not previously familiar- better meaning "here comes the next very bad thing." I'm also reminded just how much real terror got Disneyfied out of that movie, and whitewashed in the Broadway version.

Or, in other words: great stuff. Can't wait for more.

Julia, I also like Spike reinforcing Xander's memories
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 03:53 am (UTC)
(the picture is lovely-what eyes! and eyelashes!)
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 04:30 am (UTC)
yay! More Neverland! I love it. And I'm wearing my flannel PJs, too. Aren't they just the most comfortable things? I was excited when it started getting cool enough this week to wear them again.
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 04:45 am (UTC)
First, yeah everyone seems to be going sponsored these days. Not just LJ, but other places too. These days the nature of the net is changing.

Second, heat is good. *drags out a heating blanket and cuddles up*

Third, she's absolutely gorgeous. The compliments are well-deserved, and not just because you're her mum.

Fourth, I think I love you. *happy sigh* Classic stuff here. I love the fire in Xander, and the calm determination in Spike. It's a curious crossover, but it's wonderful.

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Sunday, October 1st, 2006 04:51 am (UTC)
I swear, this just keeps getting better and better!
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 04:54 am (UTC)
*smacks self* I forgot to say, Bebe is gorgeous*!!!!
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 04:58 am (UTC)
i'm bragging. I get to do that, i'm her mum!
I bet time seems like it's going by so fast.

Crazy goings-on with livejournal and all this nonsense about 'sponsored communities'
First I heard of it but not a good piece of news. I don't know why they don't do more user surveys to test ideas before they implement them.

Ah interesting that Xander got Spike to remember him, and poor Tink! Not a good turn of events though it seems Spike will make the most of it.
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 06:20 am (UTC)
Peter Pan is loopy but I don't think things are going the way he planned, thank god *g* *bounce bounce*
Marie
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 09:40 am (UTC)
"Xander was already on the fine, fraying edge of himself" What a lovely turn of phrase, it really conjures up the scene for me.

Lovely to see more of this, can't wait for the confrontation with Hook - bounces:)
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 10:51 am (UTC)
Yayay!!

Great update, babe. What a wonderful story.

*smooches*
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 01:00 pm (UTC)
She's gorgeous!
So grown up!

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Sunday, October 1st, 2006 01:44 pm (UTC)
First off, your bebe is GORGEOUS, and hon, if you think the time is going fast now, ponder the fact that my "baby girl" turned 21 last week...:omgflails:

and this...umm...I think I missed a chapter or two :isbad:, but I'll go catch up. Xanderfire...I love Xander all firey and angry and sweaty and...erm...what was I saying? This is odd, but a good odd, and well Spike is just what Xander needs :nodnod:
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 01:56 pm (UTC)
First of all, thanks for the link about LJ and sponsored communities, I hadn't heard about that! I guess it will be mostly peripheral to me personally since I don't have much interest in those things, but it's interesting to see that this is a direction that LJ is going. I suppose that Six Apart has to make money somehow.

Monstrous Bebe is beautiful, with a natural lovely smile (rare in school pictures so get them to *really* smile!), and just when did she get so grown up? I know when I saw my boys dressed up for their school pictures last week I thought that same question to myself about them. My mom used to threaten to put bricks on our heads when my brother and I were little, to keep us from growing up so fast. I'll have to hunt up some bricks for my boys...
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 02:59 pm (UTC)
Adventure is all well and good but theirs has a bit too much of reality in it I think. I like how Spike has slipped into a role with Xander that he wouldn't normally take, the way xander just brings it out in him.

Don't kill Tink! Not that Xander is in any position to clapp his hands.
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 04:35 pm (UTC)
I know I already told you how much I'm enjoying this today, but I just wanted to tell you again. I love the dark twist to the story. It's very much like the original fairy tales which were all dark warnings really. I'm curious about Hook and what Spike's going to do. This is really interesting, especially when you consider the similarities of Spike and Peter Pan. The boy who will never grow old. I likey.
Monday, October 2nd, 2006 12:20 am (UTC)
Oh, my. Do we all clap our hands now? I will, you know. Excellent chapter.
Monday, October 2nd, 2006 01:22 am (UTC)
I had to go and check out that sponsored comm, just coz, and I watched the clip of the movie. now, maybe I'm a philistine, but it seemed kinda bleh, so maybe they're trying for the cool factor by coming to LJ and begging us to join and watch? Whatever. I'm not gonna. And with my permanent account I don't have to see any ads at all so I'm not as incensed as some other, but what worries me is sponsoring companies trying to shut down similar communities, or communities that slam their products. And fandom comms are going to be paranoid places for a while, for sure.

Monstrous Bebe is a real beauty! And I love her shirt. *g*

And Pan! not there, still! Go Spike, reinforcing Xander's memories and letting him fight his anger out without actually breaking him.

*frets for Tink*

Luff!
Monday, October 2nd, 2006 02:11 am (UTC)
I do believe in fairies, I do, I do!

Bebe is getting so grown up and beautiful. My own Hellspawn #1 is changing faster than I would like into a young woman. She reminded me yesterday only four years until she gets her drivers permit. Aaack!

I love me jammies very bestest of all! Flanel rocks!
Monday, October 2nd, 2006 05:55 pm (UTC)
Hi. :)

I have a nom for this story for the best fic that has not yet won an award, so I just have to ask if this one has? If not, then I can plunk it in that category of [livejournal.com profile] forbiddenawards and no worries if it *does* win something during the two month judging period, it will still be eligible. :)

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Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006 07:11 pm (UTC)
Wow, i think I love this weird crooked little fairy tale. So like the not so nice fairy tales of the Grimms Brothers of old, before all fairy tales became too PC.
Thursday, October 5th, 2006 04:07 am (UTC)
While I'm sure there are a lot of twisted Disney stories out there, yours is the first I've ever read. Absolutely loving and creeped out as I read it, lol. It was...wow. *nods* You are the* master of suspense. *chokes you* I'm hanging by a thread not to scream in frustration!!! Want more~ And the whole crazy Pan thing: super super cool and creepy. I love how Hook became the victim lol, and possible hero. Yay evil mindset authors...even though theyre ALL evil...>.>