not to be dramatic, but one of my primary worries when i chose this story for my kamikaze was what would happen in translation. 'homeless' is very dear to my heart since it was based off a section of my own life. you captured it so perfectly -- that mix of fury and humiliation buried down beneath everything else, the shrug and the thought 'well, i can eat this' even when it's clearly not edible. oh god, some of the sensory details like eating the mayo off the spoon and the week old donuts had me gagging. it's a compliment. but that's the kind of thing you do.
also, i loved so very much the sympathy in which you portrayed john. "Out for how long?" just broke me. i do love john, and it's easy to take his part in this as negative or being a bad father but i don't think he was. he was just as much a victim of circumstance as his boys. (and actually, as far as his parenting skills go, i still think the meta from too_rational sums it up well: John Winchester was good enough a father for both his sons to know he loved them, and bad enough a father for them both to believe he loved the other one more.)
another thing that breaks my heart in this story is sam. his protective instincts toward dean when he lies about the cigarette butt and even when he reassures his father both serve to underscore the essential love of their family. he's so practical in this, too.
one of the things that i have always adored about spn is the americana aspect of the show. sometimes a part of our unconciousness -- traveling dusty backroads like modern day gypsies. homelessnes is the antithesis of the american dream, which -- as sad as it would be to see our boys like this -- fits in neatly with ethos of our show.
*takes a deep breath* hope you don't mind me rambling. in conclusion, you did an amazing job. i love it!
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not to be dramatic, but one of my primary worries when i chose this story for my kamikaze was what would happen in translation. 'homeless' is very dear to my heart since it was based off a section of my own life. you captured it so perfectly -- that mix of fury and humiliation buried down beneath everything else, the shrug and the thought 'well, i can eat this' even when it's clearly not edible. oh god, some of the sensory details like eating the mayo off the spoon and the week old donuts had me gagging. it's a compliment. but that's the kind of thing you do.
also, i loved so very much the sympathy in which you portrayed john. "Out for how long?" just broke me. i do love john, and it's easy to take his part in this as negative or being a bad father but i don't think he was. he was just as much a victim of circumstance as his boys. (and actually, as far as his parenting skills go, i still think the meta from
another thing that breaks my heart in this story is sam. his protective instincts toward dean when he lies about the cigarette butt and even when he reassures his father both serve to underscore the essential love of their family. he's so practical in this, too.
one of the things that i have always adored about spn is the americana aspect of the show. sometimes a part of our unconciousness -- traveling dusty backroads like modern day gypsies. homelessnes is the antithesis of the american dream, which -- as sad as it would be to see our boys like this -- fits in neatly with ethos of our show.
*takes a deep breath* hope you don't mind me rambling. in conclusion, you did an amazing job. i love it!